[Loki stares, wide-eyed at all this...earnestness. It's difficult to say whether it's sincere, of course, but picturing B saying all this, even after is return to his reality, is difficult. That iteration of Barnes didn't trust nearly so easily.
Though this isn't quite trust, he thinks. He just thinks he knows what to expect.
Loki hears his brother's voice ringing in his ears. Predictable.]
I shall have to make an effort to surprise you, then. I'm not much of a trickster if I'm only doing what's expected.
Is this truly just curiosity for its own sake? Or was there something specific you wanted to discover?
( there's comfort in stability, predictability. regardless of however chaotic, consistency gives order to what otherwise has none. but of course loki would find fault in it, find it inadequate for his purposes, even if graduating likely meant needing to dial it back in the first place.
does it matter so much that he'd give up what he's gained for it? )
that's not all a you thing i've seen enough that very little is genuinely surprising anymore no point overthinking things i'll never be able to make sense of i'd prefer to, but it's not like thanos was ever gonna have a heart to heart with anyone you can't change someone whose mind is already made
just curiosity, though i'm sure you'll still second guess whatever i answer with if you were abandoned physically and then later abandoned emotionally to find out you weren't who you thought you were, it explains a lot no one should have to go through something like that but it's a shitty hand i was also dealt so i get it not in the exact same way obviously, but i do
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Though this isn't quite trust, he thinks. He just thinks he knows what to expect.
Loki hears his brother's voice ringing in his ears. Predictable.]
I shall have to make an effort to surprise you, then. I'm not much of a trickster if I'm only doing what's expected.
Is this truly just curiosity for its own sake? Or was there something specific you wanted to discover?
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does it matter so much that he'd give up what he's gained for it? )
that's not all a you thing
i've seen enough that very little is genuinely surprising anymore
no point overthinking things i'll never be able to make sense of
i'd prefer to, but it's not like thanos was ever gonna have a heart to heart with anyone
you can't change someone whose mind is already made
just curiosity, though i'm sure you'll still second guess whatever i answer with
if you were abandoned physically and then later abandoned emotionally to find out you weren't who you thought you were, it explains a lot
no one should have to go through something like that
but it's a shitty hand i was also dealt so
i get it
not in the exact same way obviously, but i do
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You were abandoned?
How so?
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I suppose I just assumed you were kidnapped.
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i fell into a ravine off a train
even in war they try to return the bodies for burial
in the us anyway
no one ever went looking for mine
( not even steve, unspoken. )
i survived despiteand the enemy didn't have any trouble finding me when no one else came
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I suppose he had bigger concerns.
At least Rogers didn't have the option to look.
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he did
i've read the report
they went back to retrieve the equipment we used within an hour of the radio signal
zola went easy
i was in and out, but i was there for hours
bigger concerns too, i guess